Urge

 Don't have the urge to publish anything of what I'm doing.

Never

 Never been closer to quitting teaching than today.

!

 Blasted pandemic! I have interviews to make and archives to visit! I want my 3rd shot!

If

 Going to finish the first page for my Sinking Ateneum book tomorrow. If I do and if I'm right and things go like I hope they will, I should be able to finish and half pages a week (well a page at least!). In this case book one of the series would be pretty much done December 22. Don't have a volunteer to publish it yet, though. Anyone?

Expectations

 Expectations are low, but I'm pretty sure they are not low enough.