Bottomless desk drawer

Nakupelle

B.E.M.böle

Vajoava Ateneum 3

Mämmikoura

Kekkonen edited

Sirkusprinsessa

Teaching

 Would prefer not to think about teaching, would prefer not to write about teaching

Picture from the Q theatre play Opettaja nyt by Numminen & Sarkola

Answers

 I think I've figured out most of the storylines in Ateneum. Now I need to figure out what I will actually reveal to the readers. Maybe best would be to end the series in book three

Maybe

 Maybe I don't like to draw. 

Less

 Less than 10 pgs left to do of Ateneum3. After that still shitload of things to do. Classes soon to be over. Problem with motivation on all fronts. Pretty much abandoned the idea of writing on teaching comics, better forgotten. Ateneum I will eventually conclude, but again one of the things that mean nothing. Started considering to continue on the short stories, maybe that is a direction.

Do I

 Do I really have any reason to finish this book? Less/less.

Regrets

 I have regrets.

Books books books

 Next year I could bring out 6 books, but for that I would need 18000 euros. Not quite likely then.

Ateneum 3 might be doable. Maybe. 

I was thinking

 I was thinking I really should write about teaching comics. Then I was thinking I really shouldn't write about teachinc comics. Then I was thinking I really should write about teaching comics, and it would maybe be important. Then I was thinking I really shouldn't write about teaching comics no matter what. Then I was thinking I really should. Then I was thinking I really shouldn't. Then I was thinking, if I won't write about teaching comics it will be forever forgotten. Then I was thinking: good. Then I was thinking maybe I should write about teaching comics. Then I was thinking maybe I shouldn't write about teaching comics... etc

Ateneum 3, nemo nascitur artifex

 Well, for a month now I have felt good with this series. Finally. Looks like I have 19 pages left to do of book three. Might be 64 pages or might be 72, will know in February. This book will be very much  Juri Näppas special.

Thing

 Will not participate in any dimwit discussions on any of the so called "rules". Fuck the rules, every rule.

Kustannustoimituksellista tukea

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Grim

 Vajoava Ateneum 3: going to be 64 pgs, 15 pgs left to do, out in the Fall 2026 if I get funding

Sirkusprinsessa, done, out when I get funding

Mämmikoura, done, out when I get funding

Nakupelle, out when I get funding

Läskimooses English edition, being translated

Kekkonen, corrected edition, out when I get funding

B.E.M böle, out when I get funding

Säätytön murhenäytelmä, half way through, will get back to this maybe summer 2026, maybe later

Vajoava Ateneum 4 and 5, depends on how things move on and if I get funding. Part four I should be drawing 2026, maybe out in 2027 maybe not

Suomaan kansan muinaisusko, some scripts and synopsis, maybe some day...

Somehow

 Been lucky in many ways. But even so, I would need 500€ extra each month for the next couple of years to make the ends meet. Eternal struggle, that's what it is. Choices are limited especially since I try to keep all my projects going. Maybe something will come up somehow.

The book

 I think it doesn't even exist, but maybe it will exist some day

Think

 I think I have too many things I'm working on.

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Alumni

 I'm a Taideteollinen korkeakoulu alumni, NOT an Aalto alumni. 

Possible

 Ateneum 2 is B.E.M.#32. I think I'm able to reach #50 in the time give, but would've preferred to reach #70. Oh well...

So far

 So far it has not been a happy year.

Something 4 LDC

 

So/so

 

What can I say

 I think there's a direction, but it's complicated

50/60

 50/60 that I won't finish this series. Don't really care.

Old news

 

 ooo

Old wisdom

 If I'd remember how hard it is to do a book, I would never do another.

A2

 Maybe out in August

No-one

 What I'm doing, I'm doing for no-one, not even myself. Starting to feel a bit isolated.

Stuff

 

Clue

 Still no clue of what is this book really. Many things there as a smokescreen only, hiding the actual whatever it is. Noticed again yesterday that I go to great lengths to avoid drawing action. Something in it feels wrong. Action should be played off stage like in a greek play. Maybe I sort of really believe in that.

Second third whatever

 Summer. Schedules all messed up. Been filling in stuff to Ateneum book 2. Almost done, but not quite. Will be doing some color try-outs tomorrow. Then getting started with another page for book 3. Basically book 3 will be on hold for the summer and should actually continue third short story collection. No rush with that one since the second collection not yet published. Maybe 2026.

Cover

 

Bit like this

 

Characters

 I like the characters in this book. Lot of history in each one. Every one like a sort of ice berg. This part I like.

Good bad

 Slowly I've learned to care for these characters. So I guess I will at least conclude book 3. After that not so sure, although some nice stuff coming along in book 4. 

Life in general, disillusioned. Not getting too much joy from things I used to enjoy. Like movies or making food or drawing... sometimes coming across operas or books that make me happy, mozart's idomeneo, iliad, fosse's septology... 

Restless

 Restless 4 so many reasons. Soon time to pick students for the minor subject, Läskimooses US edition finally moving along, several books finished but without funding/publisher, Ateneum 2 final adjustments and colors under way, Ateneum 3 half way drawn, book of essays possible to start but without funding, other book projects half done... 

Care

 Don't care anymore so finally some progress

11th

 Have a book project. In order to succeed I need to fail. So let's see then...

27 yrs

 Been teaching for quite some time and it's only this year I started to feel I can't do this anymore, I have nothing to give. 

But then again I never had. It is not a question of me giving it is a question of the student giving themself. I just have to stay out of the image somehow. 

I guess.

Was

 I was planning that I should write something on comics, mostly teaching but not only that. Pretty sure this is an idea that I will abandon. 

Plan

 -Work on the pictureless book

-only start ateneum3 when u feel like it

-start from some crazy place that makes no sense at all for the story

-maybe get ateneum2 scanned and colored

Should

 Should be cutting the pages for Ateneum 3. Am not.

Less

 Less than enthusiastic to publish any of my unpublished things. I guess I'll wait it out and see how it looks like 2025. Ateneum book 2 is finished, but bringing it out next year is not a good idea. I guess I will continue the series somehow, don't know yet how. Meanwhile, I have other books I can work on, maybe even publish. 

One

 I have couple of projects in mid-air. Will take 3 years that I'm done with them. Now thinking that I will only do one book after them, but one very complex/confusing maybe 2000 pg book. But we'll see.

Fuck, what?

 Teaching gone overboard and well begun book halted. Meanwhile: most recent book out in July and zero response. Universe is trying to tell me smthing or what?

Audition

 Thank u Taike for the 5 years 2020-2024

I managed to

-conclude Läskimooses with the 60 added pages for the book version

-do ground work for Ateneum series

-draw and publish Avaruusvelho

-mini-Läskimooses

-7 vuotta tii petissä

-Suomaan kansan muinaisusko book with added pages

-draw and conclude Vajoava Ateneum book one

-Kekkonen²

-draw Ateneum book 2

-draw Sirkusprinsessa book

-Finish Ruris Futurum

-draw Left 2 rot

-start Säätyttö book

Hope I passed the audition

Estimate

 I estimate third book of short stories could be done by March, I estimate I could start Ateneum 3 with some serious nonsense in January, I estimate Suomaa2 will be a lively mess. But what do I know.

Secret

 Had a plan to write essays on teaching, but realized it is better forgotten and left a secret.

Drawn

B.E.M. 31 drawn

B.E.M. 32 drawn

B.E.M. 33 drawn

B.E.M. 34 drawn

B.E.M. 35 drawn

B.E.M. 36 drawn

Teach

 When I quit, I quit just like that. And will not look back.